Perspective- August 17, 2010
I’ve been so stressed and focused on work I haven’t been thinking straight. I guess sometimes when your heart breaks, your head starts to work a little better.
Last week at the end of a really long day I was done. DONE. I could’ve sworn Satan had me by the feet and had been dragging me across the earth the past few days. I was being a real peach lemme’ tell ya. There was nothing I wasn’t complaining about.
As I was leaving work my long-time friend and co-worker, John was rushing out the door into the parking lot. I’d never seen him look that way. Fear. It was fear on his face. I said, “Hey, are you okay?” “No,” he said. “Kristen lost the baby.” They had been happily going through the first trimester. I was so excited for them.
He rushed by me, explaining what the doctor had said earlier this week and how they were headed to the emergency room. He turned back to look at me. Our faces met, green eyes to green eyes. We’ve always joked we could be brother and sister with our fair skin and dark hair.
I broke. Through tears I said, “Oh John, I’m so sorry.” He broke. I let him fall on my shoulder. We stood there crying, not saying anything. Maybe it was my round belly. But, I think he knew I understood. At that moment we weren’t old friends. We weren’t co-workers. We were future parents, we we scared, and we were sad.
I told him Greyson and I would be there for them if they needed us. I sat in my car a little longer after he drove away. I cried, and prayed, thanking God for a healthy pregnancy so far. I did nothing to deserve it. I realized all I had been worried about didn’t really matter. What matters is this little life I’m taking care of.
Disclaimer: John and Kristen gave me permission to tell their story. Thinking of them and hoping for better days.
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So sad! Hope they bounce right back and try again as son as their doctor gives the green light.
And you?
Stay strong, rest lots, eat well, and smile for your lil one!
((hugs))
I cannot even imagine what they are going through! That is so heart breaking. I will defiantly keep John and Kristen in my thoughts and prayers! I am also extremely grateful that you have had a smooth journey thus far. I only hope that it will continue to be smooth and I cannot wait to meet that little girl.
i'm so sorry for your friends….i'll be thinking of them (and you!) and praying that they have an extra helping of peace right now. love ya lady! xoxo
my heart breaks for your friends and you… rub your belly and tell that little girl to keep growing
This really is so heartbreaking. I had a good friend who had a miscarriage right before I found out I was pregnant with Isis. It was so sad to experience that with her. It actually made me really scared during my entire first trimester. I'm praying for your friends & their family!
I am so sorry… sorry for your friends, sorry for you, sorry for miscarriages in general! I wish them a healthy healing period and to use this as strength in the future. Hugs to you… and stay strong!