Antiversary- August 22, 2011
I feel foolish writing this, but I couldn’t help but feel sad when I looked at the calendar today. (When I say calendar I mean my phone. It’s my calendar and also how I tell time and see in the dark.) It stung a little when I realized it was August 22, 2011.
Today would have been my parents’ 35th wedding anniversary.
I know they’ve been separated for 6 years, and divorced for 5. I know they are both remarried. I know my Mom is better off. I know things are much better than they were circa 2005/2006. I know I should throw out the Christmas ornament I hide in the back of our tree each year with their names on it. I know I’m a grown woman and should just suck it up and get over it.
What I don’t know is if it will still sting, even just a little on, say, August 22, 2021.
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I can't say I understand what you're feeling but in my opinion I think it's perfectly valid to feel the sting. It is hard to know if that sting will ever go away. If it does I assume that will be a good thing for you but if it doesn't, remember that Greyson is there for you and to help you through things too.
I think these "milestones" are actually a really wonderful opportunity to have a day to remember, and to grieve what you lost (maybe to grieve the "perfect family" we all want, in your case.) So even though the milestones are hard, they are blessings–little snippets of time when you deal with emotions that are important to deal with. And hopefully today, on 8/23, life feels more normal again.