A year of change- January 4, 2012
I’m dropping my blog restriction to never talk about work. It’s a new year and I’m feeling squirrelly. Besides, this post is about new years, so it’s appropriate.
I rang in 2010 reporting live at Raleigh’s annual Acorn Drop. It’s the funny and charming way the City of Oaks rings in each year. We had just counted down to the new decade and THIS happened!
2010
In my mind, this guy climbing the rafters and planting a liquor-scented kiss on me was not the highlight of this night. For me, the highlight was watching that big copper nut in the freezing cold with thousands of loud revelers and knowing silently in my peaceful heart that 2010 would be the year I had a baby. I was right, and it was wonderful.
2011
We rang in 2011 barely keeping our eyes open. Parents of newborns can relate. The highlight of this night was not getting giddy and punchy as we posed our sleepy newborn with an open champagne bottle. For me, the highlight was knowing in my apprehensive, but happy heart that 2011 was the year I would get my feet under me as a new mother. I did, and it was wonderful.
2012
We rang in 2012 with our goofy, funny, amazing friends playing games and telling inappropriate jokes. We counted down the “Baby New Year” at 8:00pm and put our one-year-old to bed.
The thing that was different this year was uncertainty in my heart. I just don’t know what’s next. Do I take the leap to make changes? What is coming? I’m only four days into 2012 and I’m already feeling discontented and impatient with everything. I have a suspicion I’ll be barreling through the next 361 days. One day soon in 2012 I’ll be taking a leap, possibly a blind jump of faith into the unknown next phase.
Fortunately the past two years of pregnancy and new motherhood have made my heart strong enough for whatever life brings annually. I hope it’s wonderful.
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Good luck figuring out the next steps to take! I can totally relate to the unsettled feeling you have. I just took the plunge and cut my hours at work to keep my kids home more. Its still a little chaotic as this is the first week of the new schedule. But we're figuring it out 1 day at a time.
Loved this! Glad you took the leap to speak your mind. I helped another anchor at my station get her mommy blog going too! We're on a roll! haha. We have voices too and can speak them and not let it influence our work.
Happy New Year mama! And good luck with your new changes your way!