Thanks- July 25, 2011
It’s been more than a month since I emotionally vomited on your computer screen with this post. I was so hesitant to spew all that, but I’m so glad I did. Out of the chunks of my PPD puke came wonderful responses.
This text from an old friend made me feel supported….
“Read your blog post from yesterday. I love you and good for you for getting help!!!!”
This comment from a reader/friend made me feel not so alone…
“To be honest, I’ve not yet met a mom who didn’t have the repeated visions of the baby getting run over by a car, falling off a pier, getting burned with boiling water, all those things that flash through our minds and make us recoil at the thought. I think to some extent, those thoughts help us to be a bit more careful with the new fragile life that we’re safe-guarding. Those thoughts are obstrusive and disturbing, though. I did end up getting back on meds after John because of the rage I kept having. Rage at my husband, at my two-year-old, at the baby… you name it. Then my other OCD symptoms came back (non-baby-related) so I refilled my Rx and didn’t look back. When I went for my post-partum check up, the doctor asked me if I’d had suicidal or homicidal thoughts. I had not, but I had some really abusive thoughts which was reason enough for me to rejoin the ranks of the medicated.”
This Tweet made me feel like I had made a difference….
beingthefunmama Fun Mama
@SomebodysParent Shared your recent “hard” article w/ a friend. She printed it out to take to her dr. Thanks for being brave!
A call from an old friend in tears who said she called a therapist after reading was just the beginning. (Love you! You know who you are.) So many of my family and friends called. I couldn’t believe how many women told me they went through the same thing. I NEVER KNEW!
Blair hooked me up with this site. Katherine is amazing! Her site is wonderful and so many women have told their stories.
So the moral of the story is, I feel so much better since I admitted everything. I’m a little more than a week away from my 30th birthday and I’m feeling very blessed. This blog, and the connections I’ve made are part of those blessings. Thank you readers. Thank you.
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maybe someday I'll pony up and admit that I went through it too. So far only my doctor, my husband, and 1 far-away friend know that I took meds to help with the anxiety. you are brave!
Such a touching bloG… I so think this blog pertains to a lot of new moms…MYSELF included! I don't think, by any means, is it easy to disclose such personal emotions BUT I think it's great that you have; gives people like myself…. RELIEF!! 😀
Thank you Amy. For sharing, being so brave and having the 2nd cutest little girl I know.